Numb

It’s getting late, the light outside is there only because the sun want sometime to protect us, to try to make us not felling alone, like some of us would feel on a complete darkness.Although the sky is clear and calm, i am a little nervous….nervous of what will be, of what will happen to me or to this earth.My soul seems to crawl out of this numb body.They’re like two close buddies who won’t get along anymore.It feels like i want to do some things better, some things different, but one voice,deep down in my head, is opposing.There are two parts in me who fights to own me.A fight which makes me feel bad with every day that pass.I’m feeling so dizzy that my eyes cannot reproduce the imagine in front of me.This battle for me it looks to delete all the good things from me, and creates bad things , that i never imagined before.The big question is: Will this ever end? Will i be close to normal anymore, and if the answer is yes, i would like to know another thing: HOW??How can i defeat the two who makes me feel bad, and to conquer myself?The answer which everybody looks for, lies in us, when we really want something we have unique powers.But i don't know if i could find that powers within me.Now the sky got dark, and like i said before..i’m starting to feel lonely.All the memories from the past came to haunt me like some unrested ghosts in a cemetery where death and all of his friends plays the continuous game.Why sometimes happy memories turn into some evil demons.I should remember them with a smile upon my face, and there are times when i do that, but not today….today i’m felling numb…
I’ll see you soon..